Tuesday, January 1, 2008

A letter

Thank you so much for teaching me again that there is nothing like real love.
thank you so much for showing me again that everyone is selfish "everyone".
thank you so much for everything..
one more thing im not thankful to you!im thankful for myself!
n u were just part of it!
coz i decided that u can be part of it!
anyway..please dont come in my life ever again to show me again the same things! ok?
as i always said you dont deserve me at all!
so please dont make fun of my truthfulness for you n for the world!
no more sacrifices.. to make me realise that this world is bull shit.
i ve got it already from many !not from you too...
i dont need it!
if u really want a good friend or a good healthy reationship or something which is truthful n pure ..
u can come to me..otherwise ...u can change your path..dont come ever to me..
please dont do this to me..
i dont think i have done something to you...for you to do this to me..
or if there is something,why cant u tell me that...?
u need time?
u need space?
u need urself without anyone?
but u could have tell me,no?
this was too much!
hmm im deeply hurt!
coz i used to belive you!
i used to like you for as what you are!
there was some happiness and peace left in me..thats also gone..
hope we will never meet again...good bye


survivingbrain said...

"real" is relative. It depends on the person who loves.

Roshan said...

"im not thankful to you!im thankful for myself!
n u were just part of it!
coz i decided that u can be part of it"

gud words..nicely done..
al d best.

Anonymous said...

its ok to be ur self girl...
u don have to explain everything to everyone.
u r jus a normal girl with normal problems who wants to get attention by behaving abnormally...
out of first hand experience let me tell u...
its not worth the time u r wasting...
in about 10 yrs...wen u realise the utter foolishness of all the time u have been wasting in myriad values n beliefs u have made up now...
then u will truly be lost and alone coz no one really has anyone...
and save for a bit of intrigue that catches their attention wen they get to see u first...no one really wants to give anyone their entire life...not even u.
u r ur own master n u r alone at all times...u live it out alone...
all this bawling n complaining and blaming other ppl are just a passing phase...
a way for u to get back at urself for not being wat u thot u'd end up as.
snap out of it my girl.

anonymous it is.

Anonymous said...

You are a kid. You have filled in your mind with things that you cannot carry, because you are not matured enough to understand,realize or value the beliefs based on which you are living right now. The world is not a bull shit, you have made your own life like that.You are just a normal girl and be one. I am not writing this based on what you have written in this blog, but considering everything, in totality.Do not mess up your mind..best wishes..

Anonymous said...

I agree with annonymouses above, I know u think you are not loved, I know the pain, I know the absolute disregard with which you view the society, and I also know that you do not really disregard, but you act that you do. I know you are love starved and you hide behind a mask of utter disdain!
I know your love, I know your pain... but I suggest you love yourself first, coz if you can't love yourself, respect yourself, how can you expect another. you are a mix my love, a mix of wild emotions, you need to be alone, cut off, building yourself strong. I know you, I know your past and present but only you can shape your future... no one can show you love..... if you thought someone did, it was an illusion, and all illusions fade away!
Anyways... I hope you can figure this out yourself soon.. no one else can do that for you....

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