scared of me!

it seems people are scared of me..

i was thinking...

yea im full of love.. so i can hurt..

as anyone can hurt anyone else..

But i still think y can't u take me as what im..

i cant stop expressing...!!

if u r hurt or if u r scared

yea..may be..

i have to also take it that way..

yea ill...

ill try it that way my freind..

but i wish if you could see me as what it is..

and not be scared...

i told you no...

i turned to see things in different ways too..

tahts my growing..

my learning..

its moving.....

head over heels...

unseen words...
its about a girl who always stayed there on that conrener of the road.....
near coffee day.....
and herself thinking that.. they will turn back once and will see her...
and she is seen!!

flowering...
flowering.....
flowering.......

we are in love..

പച്ച മഴ നീല മഴ

എനിക്ക് സങ്കടം വരുന്നു..

രാവിലെ കൊറേ സങ്കടം
കൊറേ പുട്ടും പഴവും കിട്ടി ...അപ്പൊ പച്ച മഴ
പിന്നെ നീല മഴ..

എനിക്ക് ഒറ്റക്കാവുമ്പോ സങ്കടം പിന്നേം വരുന്നു ...
ഒറ്റക്കല്ലാത്തപ്പോഴും സങ്കടം വരുന്നു....

വരുന്നതു പോവുമായിരിക്കും...
പച്ച ലോല്ലി പോപ്പ് മുട്ടായി കഴിക്കാന്‍ തോന്നുന്നു

live n leave....

mmmm...
i never knew that this would happen to me..

i was nowhere in the sea...
couldnt know where i was....
i lost all my directions...
mmm..., i knew that i was drowning...
i may die without knowing what was that!!!!

If i ask you to come back as soon as possible...
does it make sense??!!!
Im melting into this magnetic field where i've loaded with
illogical memories!
ah! EYES STARTED BLEEDING!

if i ask u to give me ur and n hold me
does it make any sense to u???!!!!
im scared, more n more scary scenes passing by...
the stillness and silence like an afternoon...like a gloomy sunday...
can swallow me..i know..

HEY I NEED YOU BADY!
never knew that this would happen to me..

it was a nursery rhyme which i was trying to remember!
its painful!

i thought i can forget..
n i still remember,

i thought i can never forget...,
and it just vanished!
what fun!!!

live n leave...
life!

death!

death............

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9............
it goes on.....
death............

ah!! its 12.22 pm

its terrible!


She feels terribly disappointed that im such a selfish n careless friend! i know she is in pain
both mentally and physically!
and look at me,sitting in this arm chair so kool relaxed and incredibly irresponsible!
there i goes!
hey stop it my kani!
my parasite!

now its too much!

yea true...i know...
i wonder y i live...!!??
y i even smile cry or whatever!
i've seen none other than me being "selfish" like this way!

HELLO friends...
if you can please dont help me to stand,breathe or live to exist such a pathetic way!
let me die..die on the spot!

I DONT DESERVE ANY OF YOUR LOVE!
just have to kil me!

people in my life..butterflies who used to dance with me..
o how beautiful you all are!
they loved me, listened to me always...
and what i did...i was hurting them all through my life... till now!
i should be killed!
its pathetic!


ah a rainbow!
just appeared in front of me!
BEAUTIFUL.... ITS 12.22 PM!

its about my body smell!

my body...,
it smells...
it smells ...
eternal fragrance...
hahha nothing...


it smells like fish! wohooo
sometimes its smells like...the earth...
sometimes it smells like turmeric...
it smells... anyway...

salty body!
stinky cat!

i hate innocence!

i hate if somebosy is innocent!
i hate the word innocence!
its nonsense!

summer rain.....

aha!
summer its summer...
rain its raining....
summer rain...
its hot humid.. and cool...
i m loving it..its so hot... n u can just burn...
im highly inflamable... i love this burning...
by the way its just a movie 'summer rain' such a beautiful movie...

2.28pm!
i was walking through all these junk roads in tvpm!
yea its hot i know!
no purpose!
i dont have any place to go..
i dont have anyone to meet...
so lucky im!

these people always want to make me feel sick of my life!
so here comes the summer rain again!

coffee house ice cream

after long time
i think at least after 15 years
I'm having it again...

coffee house vanilla flavored ice cream!

lovely!

inside water..

u r weightless...
u r dead...

floating...
its so beautiful...

by the way i got tanned more n more...
painting myself...
so beautiful!!

badly need a smoke rite now!

Im not getting my blood!

my dates...

but where is my blood!
come come come...
waiting to see...
that thick dark blood drop.. on those white tiles!
loving that!

oh pierced nose!

i never thought ill pierce my nose!


and i never thought ill do soemthing in my life asking suggessions from
many people and taking time to decide!
what all! like a marriage!

i went to the jewellery shop! they came to see how its going to get done!
wow! thats was good.. got peirced..
tears came out!
but no pain! i was smiling, i was happy!

but i neevr wanted this..
and im happy coz i did soemthing that i dont want
i loved doign that..

like i wanted to do myself "something i dont want to do"
so i did what i want!
pierced nose!
shines!
white stone!
it costs!!

orange skirt!

yea....
after long time i know..

so i know you and you know me also..
is it right?
thats what u said !
thas what we think!
so lets separate now..
no more extensions!

its an orange skirt with green , yellow and black flowers!
flowers it seems!

time is 2.16
i didnt had my lunch!
and i was dancing!